Welcome to my silly life...mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.

I don’t usually blog about things that are really and truly personal. I am sure I will one day. I need a place to vent. I think I would surprise a lot of people with the things I keep in this head. Well, maybe if I could only remember half of it.

Tracy Lawrence once told me that “you find out who your friends are”. Well, I have to say he was absolutely right. I know I don’t really have a best friend, or any real group of good girlfriends like most people do, but I still feel that I am a good friend. At least, if you let me. I just don’t have the greatest social skills, or a good line of bs to keep you entertained. HOWEVER, I would do anything for someone I consider a friend. I have recently found that I have a dear friend and I just keep telling myself, “I KNEW IT”. I tried to thank her profusely, and can only hope she knows I mean it. I am forever in her debt.

My father-in-law is in the hospital. He had major heart surgery and is now in ICU. That’s the only real detail I feel comfortable sharing for now. He has been in the hospital since this past Wednesday. Needless to say this has been a trying time for everyone. I have learned a lot more about a person’s heart than I ever thought I’d know. I also never thought I’d be so excited to hear my father-in-law say “Gimme some sugar”. But I was. Beautiful words. It has been such a rollercoaster of a week (and it hasn’t even really been a week). I have learned many things about many people (that I will keep to myself - for now). I have also learned a lot about myself, though these things are not necessarily “news” to most people. I am too tenderhearted and sensitive, take things too personally, and give too many people the benefit of the doubt. I run myself out of breath taking up for them, only to have them let me down within seconds. Well. Well. Well. What a deep subject.

I have also learned that my two girls are TROOPERS. They have sat through (wallered through, climbed furniture through…) countless hours in the hospital waiting room. I am glad they have been able to be there for a distraction for the family and friends hurrying up to wait…

I have been in search of some words of wisdom tonight and want to share a few quotes that spoke to me tonight…
--To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.
--Don’t waste your breath proclaiming what is really important to you. How you spend your time says it all.
--Things which matter most must never be at the mercy of things which matter least.
--It isn’t the mountain ahead that wears you out, it’s the grain of sand in your shoe.

And just a couple of random thoughts I want to leave you with. First, I am nearly 31 years old and STILL do not feel like a grown-up. I’m beginning to think there’s no such thing. Second, I am more in love with my husband than I have ever been. Third, I hate it when I make my kids cry.

Good night from a tired, tired, hot mess of a mama.

It's either in your blood or it ain't...

It's either in your blood or it ain't...

For starters, the red carpet show was beyond boring with the nerdiest hosts ever. The highlights of that hour I wasted were that Trey Fanjoy won for directing "House That Built Me" and "Who are You When I'm Not Looking". good for her. Oh, and Jennifer nettles saying she was doing to sue Justin Beiber for all the screaming. 

Boring so far...then Taylor Swift starts the awards... I'm SO OVER her. Ugh. The little Thelma & Louise spoof idea was cute, but would have been better with Miranda Lambert and Sheryl Crowe. Although, Ron White wearing one of "Alan's" shirts from hangover 2 was hilarious. Now for my random thoughts during the awards..

I wish my Kenny Rogers had never thought he needed plastic surgery. :( 

Um, this Naomi still loves her some Wynona. She even got feather extensions to try to be like me. 

Ludacris at the CMT awards?! Huh?

Good for Rascal Flatts grabbing some Beiber Fever for themselves. But GEEZ, couldn't they get him to pull up his pants?! Seriously!

The Band Perry...one of my favorites.

I am not a Luke Bryan fan. Country pop sell-out is all I can think of... But, I do believe he borrowed some of Dwight Yoakam's spraypainted on pants.

Dear Hines Ward, thank you for showing me a cowboy hat cocked to one side. I have no words, but it did make me smile.

I BIG puffy heart Gary Levox.

I appreciate the artist that is John Rich, but I like him much better with a little Big Kenny by his side.

Gretchen Wilson's face does no match her body. Think she'd trade with me? Bodies, not face.

If you missed Colt Ford, I am so sorry. You should cry yourself to sleep tonight.

Sheryl Crow...can I have your legs and voice? Thanks.

Zac Brown, I gotta get me sone of those glasses. And I still just wanna squeeze you, even if you're losing weight.

Laura Bell Bundy...you had the best lines of the night. I wanted to post them, but I deleted the DVR too soon. Hilarious!!

Hey, girl in Lady Antebellum, dye your hair back blonde and lose the spandex. 

How cute are Lauren & Scotty?

I TOLD YOU Kristian Bush could sing!! I <3 Sugarland.

Loved KR's line about redneck mating call. He would know! I'm pretty sure he lives in Pine Hill Community. Just saying.

What a way to make an entrance Shania. She was probably smokin up with Kid Rock backstage.

Taylor Swift winning video of the year is REDONKULOUS!!!  I'm convinced only 12 year olds vote on here.

Dear Jason Aldean, WHY IN THE WORLD did you not get Colt Ford to do the rapping on the song he and Brantley Gilbert originally did together?!!!!! I am very disappointed with you tonight. You better be glad you're cute!

WHY WAS ERIC CHURCH NOT NOMINATED FOR ANYTHING???????!!!!!!

Please disregard any typos, as I am sending this from my phone because Cobridge has decided I can go MONTHS without Internet service because they do not feel like showing up for appointments.

Some beach...